Well, I had been living in this world for 21 years and I'm trying as hard as possible to get things right. For all the things that i had done, I wished not to be regret and trying to keep focus on my future. However; once it had happened, no matter how hard i tried to forget about it, it will still float in my mind and will actually made me felt that it's my failure. Hence, I'm actually confused of what am i supposed to do? Is there a chance for me to 'take two'?
Basically, all of these happened due to i didn't really appreciate her when i had the chance and things started to turn bad due to lack of trustworthy between each other. Moreover, i did explain to her all the matters but initially i felt that gap had existed in between us and it ended up meaningless to pursue her anymore. Honestly speaking, i really doubtful on the matter 'is she really love me?'(at that time) because alot of rumours started to spread that she had actually started a new relationship with someone and some said that she's just playing around. When i heard the rumours, my heart is totally broken and it will never heal but somehow my strong feeling towards her had never changed. Most importantly, I'm not so sure that had we started our relationship at the point of time and I'm totally a blank over this question. Am i silly?
Tick Tack Tock ....
Furthermore, time flies very fast and i had been adapted to the new life / new environment. Somehow, new life doesn't mean that i had purely forgot about her and i dared to say that I'm still cared about her and trying to be the man behind her. But i knew that in her heart, her EX is actually been placed as the first priority in her heart and she really loved him very much. What can i do? Except to comfort her when she was upset or trying to accompany her when she was bored. I'm happy to do all these stuffs and i will never regret because i knew that loving someone is not a necessity to spend all the valuable time together with her while is to wish her to live happily ever after. Therefore, sacrifice for someone that you really love is the greatest love in the world.
Last but not least, I'll always keep in mind that i will totally support her in my life and would never let someone to hurt her. Seeing her living happily is the greatest achieving in my life and i will make it as my practice in my life.
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