Upset

I'm totally upset with all the things that had happened. I've no idea why would she treat me like that and i really dont understand. I tried my ever best to treat her better and provide happiness for her but it turned out the other way out. I'm disappointed with it and initially i think our friendship had broken as well. I wont be thinking about that anymore and i think i really did nothing wrong this time. Hope she will be able to live happily ever after with her life. This is gonna be my last post in this blog and it will end forever. Take good care,wern!

Happy new year is approaching soon and is it going to be really a 'happy' new year? Hope so and keep my fingers cross for that happy moment if it's really come true. I stopped publishing new post for the past few months due to someone had discover my secret for expressing my expression. Well, i think that i had already started it and i should actually continue doing so till i was told to be stopped.

There's always a pop up in my mind saying that should there be anything that i could improve in my characteristic nor my personality. No matter how hard i tried to make myself the best to tolerate or to love, there's always a feeling that make me felt that i'm not the best yet and there's far behind for me to catch up. I really dont know where to put in more efforts as i'm really trying hard to do it already.

When there's couple that finally get along, i believe that they must be had alot of breakthrough among themselves and i strongly agreed that this breakthrough will definitely makes the relationship to be strengthen. However, this is according case to case basis, where i really hope we managed to breakthrough all the obstacles and we could actually live happily ever after.

Complicated -Part One-

Well, I had been living in this world for 21 years and I'm trying as hard as possible to get things right. For all the things that i had done, I wished not to be regret and trying to keep focus on my future. However; once it had happened, no matter how hard i tried to forget about it, it will still float in my mind and will actually made me felt that it's my failure. Hence, I'm actually confused of what am i supposed to do? Is there a chance for me to 'take two'?

Basically, all of these happened due to i didn't really appreciate her when i had the chance and things started to turn bad due to lack of trustworthy between each other. Moreover, i did explain to her all the matters but initially i felt that gap had existed in between us and it ended up meaningless to pursue her anymore. Honestly speaking, i really doubtful on the matter 'is she really love me?'(at that time) because alot of rumours started to spread that she had actually started a new relationship with someone and some said that she's just playing around. When i heard the rumours, my heart is totally broken and it will never heal but somehow my strong feeling towards her had never changed. Most importantly, I'm not so sure that had we started our relationship at the point of time and I'm totally a blank over this question. Am i silly?

Tick Tack Tock ....

Furthermore, time flies very fast and i had been adapted to the new life / new environment. Somehow, new life doesn't mean that i had purely forgot about her and i dared to say that I'm still cared about her and trying to be the man behind her. But i knew that in her heart, her EX is actually been placed as the first priority in her heart and she really loved him very much. What can i do? Except to comfort her when she was upset or trying to accompany her when she was bored. I'm happy to do all these stuffs and i will never regret because i knew that loving someone is not a necessity to spend all the valuable time together with her while is to wish her to live happily ever after. Therefore, sacrifice for someone that you really love is the greatest love in the world.

Last but not least, I'll always keep in mind that i will totally support her in my life and would never let someone to hurt her. Seeing her living happily is the greatest achieving in my life and i will make it as my practice in my life.